Another two week wait

This month was supposed to be not trying, but not preventing, and that's what we did.  But, now that I'm in my two week wait, I find myself really hoping I'm pregnant again. I was going to try to hold out until after a possible missed period to test, to follow along with our approach this month, but for the past few days, at some point in the day I'd convince myself I was pregnant.  And so, I've tested the last two days... with negative results.  Last month I got my positive the evening of 9DPO (days past ovulation) and today I'm 10DPO, so I'm a little discouraged.  I keep reminding myself that every pregnancy is different, and that if a few extra days or months of waiting gives me a sticky baby it is well worth the wait. 

I think Husband is upset that I'm not waiting to test- the reason we planned to wait was so that we wouldn't get attached if we are pregnant and miscarry early again.  I see his point- I even agree with him, but right now I'm analyzing every twinge, high temperature, etc and wondering.  Plus, my new doctor has said I could come in as soon as I get a positive test, and if there is anything that could be done to prevent another loss, I want to know as soon as possible. 

Plus, I'm a POAS addict.